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First post of 2010. Took me long enough, right?

"You can sleep through the middle of the night
'cause I'll stay up and make sure everything's alright"

When you owe someone the world, when they owe you nothing in return. I don’t say it to you often enough. This one’s for you. About you. Thank you.

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Tell me something I ought to know, show me something I need to see.
Point the way that I need to go, tell that you believe in me.
I couldn’t this without you, I couldn’t do this period.

Believe the "Lie"

Been drawing a blank for a while. Thought I should make the last post of 2008.

Maybe we weren't meant to live forever
Maybe it was just a mistake
Maybe we were meant to die together
Maybe it's not too late

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When you're tired of always being tired but can't ever sleep
I feel like the only person in the world

When time becomes the one thing you can't keep

When no one's awake when I want them to be
Sometimes I just want to sleep
Why can't I ever just sleep?

Home

That's where I want to be.
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"I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home
Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right"

Epic Fail...

Because sometimes, people suck.

Dear Citizen,

I don't know why or how I, me of all people got this but thank you. Ken Garduno is awesome. So are you guys.

ACT/ Hip Hop Literate

Call it, head or tails. Wish me luck, come tomorrow I'm going to need it.


People say that the best things in life are free
Well, that shows how much people know about me
When people choose to believe everything they see
Taking the world at face value
What we're doing we're doing for you
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The mirror has two faces
All I see is my reflection
A glimpse of the past
And the reason I won't face them
Half the life I'll never see
Half the person I wanted to be
All the reasons why (you'll never be) you're not me
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I write better than few
And talk even less
I'm writing the words I know you'll forget
Can't get blamed for something (I) you never did
(I'm) Raising this auction to the next highest bid
I'll write this letter (and) I'll use your pen
You could write this better than all of them

60000

We're waiting. Whatever it is, we're ready and we're waiting. We're ready for it, come bring it.

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Being honest goes a long way in my book. Truth. Distraction from what? We're missing something aren't we? I'm waiting for Monday. It's what I know. Truth.

Now That I Have Your Attention....

Playing off our paranoia isn’t nice. There is a purpose for it. We think, therefore it is. How do we know when we really get it? My days and nights are all consumed by it. I hate it. I LOVE it. I’m going to need a psychiatrist after it.

It's Not Over Yet, 59996

Maybe things changed. Maybe they didn’t. Maybe we’re just trying too hard. There’s no such thing as a straight answer from you is it? Marco, Polo. Are we hot or cold?

Beneath Medicine Tree, In Motion, Eat Sleep Repeat, You Are My Sunshine

I can honestly say, for the first time in a long time, I could see where I wanted to be, even if it was only a glance.

Dazed and Confused

I’m not even going to pretend to know what you’re talking about.

Tomorrow could have ended today

You took for granted what you did yesterday

Tomorrow tastes better than you could ever say

Live for now, it could have gone another way

The Store Didn't Save You, You Saved Yourself (Late Night Confessionals, Early Morning Lies)

Sometimes I just don’t know anymore. You don’t owe us anything, but it’s still appreciated.
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I’ll set the scene, you take care of the rest
I gave you the problem, you do what you do best
Talk to the doctors, get it off your chest
Take a moment to sit down and ask them “What’s next?”
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Take me down the halls and turn off the lights
Everything down here is always too bright
I could list you all the things that just aren’t right
If you would give me a pen, paper, and a moment to write
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Doesn’t that make you feel kind of alone
That everything you once knew is now gone
How some people here are terribly wrong
How they think they know what’s going on
They're singing the words, but you wrote the song
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Sign your name on the line it will keep you alive
Like a name on a line actually stops suicide
Like a name on a line erases what you feel inside
Like it could never betray what you know, besides
You tell the truth, live a little, live a lie
You wanted to live not to die
But who would ever believe your side
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You’re not dead or dying, you’re sitting right there
But everyone’s talking about you as if you’re not here
Things turn out differently than circumstances bare
And situations tell you if they even really care
The realization in the end is more than I can share
The thought of being “was”, of never being here

Live a little, Live a Lie

Sometimes I wonder if what I write is witty enough. I say screw wit, I always liked puns better anyways.

Make Up For It: "You suck, you changed"

I can work with this.

I bend the truth but the lies I always get straight
They’re just thoughts that never meant anything to you
Grand ideas and gestures you ignored
You dish out pity like it’s nothing new
An ‘at your own risk’ entrée when coming from you
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I think it’s worth the I told you so
Cause everything I said was true
You had it plenty, plenty of time
And it shows just how little you knew
I’ve got your attention when you never had mine

Reality Check

The realest thing I've wrote in a long while. This is me writing something that really means something. I'm going to do that more often.
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And then I just forget
Like I’m missing something but can’t remember what it is
It’s times like that I think I’m crazy
I hate that feeling
I feel like that almost all the time
And then there are the things I can’t write
Things I can’t put into words
Because those are the words that make me realize
That make me see just how messed up I really am
I don’t think I could take that
I’m afraid to face myself because I don’t know what I’ll see when I do
And for once my problem has nothing to do with you
So I pass the time in other peoples lives
And I wonder if they're afraid to face themselves to

Kurt Halsey Frederiksen and Stuff

Guess what? I got that motivation. Yeah, the first is from a painting on Meelikey ...A Boys Life, the second is just something I found lying around on my computer.
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You hear you favorite song on the radio
It reminds you of the good and the bad
It takes you back to your all time lows
And all the fun times you had
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Like the picture, like the people
Like the things that went unsaid
Cause it never was enough for me to see
That you would believe every word they say
And how difficult the music life could be
Once thought we were on the same page
Then I found out the hard way
Unlike the people, the pictures never change

Are You Tired? Do You Think You Need to Sleep?

Here’s something else for your reading pleasure (or nightmare).
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Sometimes you make me want to self-doubt
Have me up thinking what’s life all about.
Make me think that I’m not good enough
Sometimes you wish I was never here
You make me feel unwelcome there
Maybe I really am not good enough
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You make me want to wake up and see
Someone else who’s better than me
Everyday day when I see myself
You make me wish it was someone else
From all the lies that came to be
You make me wish I wasn’t me

What Is Your Profession?

Let us just skip straight to the point. Where have I been lately? Well, I'll give you a hint.

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Have you ever thought you were missing out on something?
Never getting what you were always wanting?
Everyone’s words were just so taunting .
Because everyone’s words were those who had gotten
Not the words from those who were forgotten
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But if there was anything that you wanted
You found you already had
And that there was no reason to get upset or mad
Because when you let everything go
You find the one thing you will always know
The one place that’s safe that you can always go